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Billmon's sense of the inevitably of his own demise in a car-wreck, and his equating that sensation to the current situation in the Middle East--especially after Kerry appears to signed on to Bush/Blair's recent sellout of Palestine--mirrors my sensation exactly. I'm looking out the windshield with genuine curiosity; I really want to see what happens and have a surprising dispassion about it at the moment. Like a good mystery novel with forty pages to go.